Still employed - kinda...

So I'm still kind of working. I've been trying to find a new job but there really isn't much out there. I've been to a couple employment agencies and they always say "You're great but...we don't really have anything for you at the moment." Bah Humbug - oh well.

I've also been on two working interviews with a company who now may not be looking to hire some one full-time. Apparently I'm just too good - the position would be taking over the full-time position of someone who has left the company so you would think that it would, therefore, be a full time position. Unfortunately, I did so well that the amount of work that I would alloted would not take me nearly as long as it would have taken this other person. This would be fine with me since my current/old job wants to keep me on 2 days a weeks anyways so if I can eek out another 3 days from this other person then I will be employed 5 days a week. The problem there is that this other company is worried that if my current/old place were to get busier they would want me back full time - which they would - and she is worried that I would leave her then - which I would. I say that because if you can't offer me full time work but some one else can then why would I stay with you? Anyways, I'm supposed to hear from her by the end of this week - it's Thursday...still nothing - Bah humbug.

I do not like my life filled with unknowns. I have several options but I can't put any of them into play because I don't really know what's going to happen and without knowing what's going to happen then I can't plan for the future and seriously I just plain DON'T like it.

This week I have worked 3 days and I have Friday off as well. So I spent my Tuesday of by spending time with a good friend of mine who apparently thought it would lots of fun to psycho-analyze me for literally 7 hours. Everything I said or did during this time was examined and required explanation. I suppose it's only fair since most of the time we normally spend together we spend it discussing her life and current issues. I guess Tuesday was my turn but I was really in a weird mood (well not weird for me) and I didn't find it entertaining at all.

However, some interesting points came up - such as there is an unpardonable sin as according to me. This sin is lying and this is why. I trust everyone about everything. I know this sounds naive but it's simply that I do not want to be suspcious of everyone of everything and therefore I am suspcious of no one of anything. If you tell me you will meet me somewhere I believe you will. If you tell me you are busy I believe that you are. If you tell me you forgot something, lost something, told someone something, did something I will believe you because I DON'T lie. I CAN lie but I choose not to. I can lie VERY well, I used to lie a lot but now I figure what on earth is the point of that? My friend tells me it's sacrilegious to have my OWN unpardonable sin but I'm not sure I care. I figure that since I deal honestly with everyone about everything they should do me the courtesy of relating to me in the same way. I don't mean that if I look fat in something you should go out of your way to tell me that. My friend used this scenario as an example - she borrows my ring that I wear everyday to wear to a party, she promises not to lose it but she does - is that a lie? No that's not a lie but if she then denies losing it - that is a lie. If you lost the ring then just admit that you did. It's just a ring - a ring I really like but still just a ring and I would rather know that it is gone. She also asked what would I want her to do if she were to see my hypothetical boyfriend out with some girl. There are honestly a lot of scenarios that could play into this ie. is it a friend or is he actually cheating on me? I don't think I would care if he was out with 'Brenda' so long as he told me he was going to have coffee with 'Brenda' and didn't lie and say he was seeing 'Brad'. I advised her that she should make her presence known to him and tell him that I prize honesty above all else and he has a deadline in which to come clean to me himself or else she would do it for him. Ie. he needs to tell me by Friday what's really going on or she will - this way he has his opportunity and if he chooses not to take it then he has made his choice. Seriously what should it matter if he's having coffee with a girl? I have friends that are boys and so he can have friends that are girls - it only matters if he's being dishonest about it - because then you have to ask "Why is he lying?"

The truth according to Sarah is that lying is the real root of all evil. But hey - what do I know?

Hmmm...facing unemployment...

So I was laid of Friday. I was a bit surprised since as recent as the week before I was told I didn't have to worry about my job beacuse it was safe. But apparently that safety had an expiry date and that was Friday afternoon.

They have atleast given me three weeks notice and I have already started applying for jobs. I haven't freaked out yet but talk to me when the three weeks are up if I haven't found anything
else by then.

I spent a glorious Saturday walking around Stanley Park - unfortunately I wore the wrong shoes and now me right knee hurts and my left ankle hurts. I have also developed a sore throat and a runny nose and I didn't sleep at all last night. I also have a test on Thursday night worth 20% of my grade.

Lots of things for me to deal with right now - hopefully I'll be able to.

Things I've learned about me...

Do you and your reactions to people and situations ever take you by surprise? I used to be shocked by my behaviour every so often (not usually in a good way) but now I feel I know understand myself better and therefore deal with things better.

For example I truly like being alone - it refreshes me - I don't want to be alone ALL the time but I have realized that people drain me and so I NEED time alone. If I don't get time alone then I get too drained and when I get too drained I get cranky!
The amount that people drain me depends on the person. Some people I can be around alot and be fine and others I can only handle a couple hours before reverting to cranky Sarah (yes I am using cranky instead of a much stronger and perhaps inappropriate word). So what do I do to keep myself refreshed? I make sure that I spend enough time alone and don't let myself get bullied into too many draining activities.

I also have learned that I like a plan. If something is in THE PLAN then it will work - if you try and shove something else into or adjust THE PLAN then you run the risk of cranky Sarah. Please do not attempt to plan my life for me - I have it handled. If you want me to be involved in something then present the option to me and I will analyze my current plan to see if it is 1) feasible and 2) worth adjusting THE PLAN. It really has to fulfill both requirements for me to participate. Don't push it - just accept it and move on - I have.

I have also noticed that if I try to do too much then I become Perma-Cranky Sarah and really no one wants that. This is why I plan - everything - I need to know ahead of time that everyhting I want to do will fit nicely into the alloted amounts of time available. I also hate to feel rushed - this ties into the fitting nicely thing. If I figure something will take half an hour then I would want an hour available just in case something happens and it takes longer I don't need to feel stressed about it. For example - I have just started taking a night hcourse in Surrey which (according to Mapquest) should take me 50 minutes to get there - knowing myself and my penchant for getting stressed I gave myself 70 minutes to get there. It took me 60 minutes to arrive at campus and then another 5 minutes waiting in the pay parking line (because someone didn't know how to use the machine) but I was able to get to class with 5 minutes to spare - and I didn't get all stressed because I had given myself extra time.

Meh - maybe I'm crazy but this works for me.

One down lots more to go...

So I wrote my final for Organizational Behaviour on Saturday morning - by Saturday afternoon I had my final grade for the course already. I have to admit that my teacher is super organized - anyway - ended up with an A in the course so that makes me happy I put in all that effort since it paid off.
Next course will be Accounting 2 - I'm going to drive out to Surrey today to sell back my OB text and buy my Accounting one. My plan is - hopefully - to read my accounting text before my class even starts. My first class is September 10th and I figure if I read a chapter a day I will be in good shape for the coming semester. That's the plan now let's see if I can stick to it.......

Must purchase GPS...

So I have never had a good sense of direction. All my family and most of my friends will attest to this - there are numerous stories of how ridiculously lost I can get in a short period of time and now we can add a new one.
On Tuesday I got lost in Abbotsford for 1.5 hours! Honestly I think it's a special gift to be able to get THAT lost! I decided that I wanted to find Superstore as there were a number Superstore specific items I wanted to purchase. I did my due diligence and looked up online where it was and actually found it rather flukily and easily. The trouble started when I tried leaving Superstore. I was SO sure of myself that I figured I would go home a different way than I had arrived. This was NOT a good idea and I ended up on the #11 - TWICE! I was honestly SO lost I just kept driving and driving - turning around and driving some more - then turning around again - trying desperately to find some street name that I recongized. I would eventually find one and then drive on it for AGES and realize it was NOT taking me where I wanted to go so I would turn around and try again. The sad part is I started out only a couple blocks from my apartment - I made one wrong turn (right instead of left) and that began my little adventure. Atleast my car has air conditioning!

If you're going to talk then talk otherwise be quiet...

During my trip to GP I realized I'm a pretty lousy travel companion. I was flying with my dear mother who likes to chat which is fine - if you're going to keep up a conversation - but if you're going to say one thing then stop then wait a minute and say one more thing and then wait a minute and say one more thing then wait a minute and say one thing...(I think you get the idea) it gets annoying.
I love the quiet - silence doesn't scare me it relaxes me - I'm used to travelling alone and as with everything I have my little routine and this one includes me reading in the relative silence of the plane from the moment I get on to the moment we land. I'm not one of those people who strikes up a conversation with the random person sitting next to me - I'm the person who sits there and pretends you all don't exist. It's anti-social - I know.
After 30 minutes of the talk-not talk-talk I finally told my dear mother that I had the read the same three sentences over and over and either we have a conversation or she had to stop talking to me and watch her TV with the earphones I lent her. I'm sure I hurt her feelings - I'm evil.
I tried to make up for it by being pleasant and not tearing a strip off my greedy brother during the trip but I ended up actually getting in trouble for that. Apparantly it would have been appreciated if I HAD stood up to him and told him to stop being such an @$$ - I can't ever get it right. I did try to appease people on this trip, despite the combined 6 hours of sleep I got the two nights I was there - I even bought mom breakfast on our way home and she even let me read my book on the plane :)

There and Back Again...

So I spent the weekend in GP - it was hot - but not as bad as what I came home too.
My brother-in-law's birthday was Wednesday so as a surprise mom and I flew up Friday night and back on Sunday. My sister had planned a surprise party for him on Saturday night which worked out well as he was very surprised. Stemma, Mom and I met Anna and Yuya for breakfast at his favorite restaurant. Yuya was told that Stemma wanted to take him out for breakfast to celebrate his birthday and then there would be a family barbeque that evening after he had gone golfing with a friend of his. When he got to the restaurant he ran into another friend at the door but was distracted from that conversation when he noticed me sitting at a table across the room. He didn't trust his eyes. As he shook hands with and spoke to this friend he kept peering over the guys shoulder looking at me. When he and Anna finally made it to the table and hugs were giving out all around he said that he had seen me right away and kept saying to himself "That girl looks like Sarah but what would she be doing here?". We had a wonderful breakfast and Yuya went off to play his round of golf sure in his thinking that our trip up was his surprise. It wasn't. When he got home from golf there was a houseful of people waiting to wish him a very happy 30th Birthday. That party didn't end until 2am Sunday - well that's when I went to bed - had to be up at 5:30am to catch the flight home.
What a whirlwind trip - but worth it!

I'm going home...

So I've been living in my mom's house since she and my little sister departed a week an half ago for Mexico to build houses for the poor. I have enjoyed my solitude - a little too much probably. I find the more anti-social I am the more anti-social I get. I have also not had a good night sleep since they left. I have been getting only 2 to 4 hours of sleep each night and for that reason I am an absolute wreck. Tuesday I came to work at 6:30am - worked for 2 hours and then gave up and went home and slept until 2:30.
It's been productive week and a bit though. I wrote my second midterm for my OrgBeh class - I didn't fail! I went to an absolutely wonderful wedding - I spent quality time with a friend visiting from Ghana - I spent even more quality time with a friend visiting from Edmonton and we had an impromptu sleep over (on a work night no less!) - I enjoyed a wonderful time sitting around a fire hearing my favorite true story re-told by fabulous friends - I spent gobs of time catching up with a friend who has been exploring the other side of the world for months and months and is back doing that already - I played frisbee with some very encouraging people who didn't seem to mind that at my age I needed lessons on how to throw said frisbee - I had a 4.5 hour conversation over coffee at Starbs with a friend I hadn't spent any quality time with in 4.5 months.
Wow - I guess I haven't been as anti-social as I thought...

Seriously so funny...

Flaily...

Do you ever get flaily?
I have friends who get flaily - they just can't sit still and need to swing their arms around - it's funny to watch - but now it's happening to me...

I am just SO restless! I was on a plane recently and was got frustrated that it took so long to land - my little sister thought I was a nut. I think it has something to do with the gym - up until I moved a couple weeks ago I was going to the gym ery often. I cancelled that membership since I knew I wasn't going to be driving 30-45 minutes to go to the gym but I thought I would join one quickly in my knew location but I haven't...I looked at my funds and thought maybe I should hold off for a couple weeks and save some cash - but now I just want to flail!

I have all this excess energy - I sit all day at work and sit while I drive and sit at home...I know I should go for a run or something but I don't run well - haha!

Being poor and flaily = lame

Moving...

So I moved into my new place on Sunday - it went better than I could ever have hoped for. Thank the good Lord for great friends and family who made the whole endeavor and fairly quick and painless one.

I've never really moved before - unless you count England and I don't because I could only bring 2 bags - so I didn't really know what to expect.

So now I am just enjoying my new digs and the peace and quiet that goes along with having your roommate chilling in Hawaii!

Just chill out...

So yesterday one of my many bosses had a fight with one of the big bosses (as in one of the owners of the company). They were shouting at each other and the one who isn't a big boss even slammed doors.
Please tell me if you think that this is honestly appropriate behaviour for a work place. Would you have a shouthing match with your boss and would you storm around slamming doors at work? I wouldn't and I couldn't believe it when he came into my office asking if I heard what had happened and bragged about how he took the big boss down a peg. Are you freaking kidding me? Who do you think you are? Yes this big boss is hard to take sometimes but I don't think that behaviour is anywhere near appropriate and what did he expect me to say? "Good job"?
Seriously buddy just chill out!
Thankfully the big boss in question is gone for the rest of the week and the other guy seems to have mellowed a bit but he still thinks he's pretty cool having his freak out yesterday.

Oh dear...

So much has happened this week...

My Grandfather (my mom's dad) is in the hospital and it doesn't look good. Mom is flying to Edmonton this afternoon, Bec and I are flying out tomorrow morning, and Anna and Yuya are driving down tomorrow as well. I can't get a hold of Stemma but I've left messages for them letting them know what's up. We all will return to our homes Sunday - very wuick trip.

I finished all my homework for this week yesterday - yeah it's ALL done - it was only one chapter though so I'm worried about next week which is two chapters.

What was interesting about my homework was that I had to take a whole bunch of personality tests and I found out a lot about myself - such as I am a Type A1 personality - not just Type A but A1!!!! I am also an INTJ which means that I am Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking and Judging personality. I read the desciption and it seems spot on. I also have a self-esteem score of 44, a low-Mach score, High Internal Locus of Control and a Low Self Monitor score. The self monitor score makes me laugh because it relates to how you are able to adjust your behaviour to be able to make other people approve - apparently I can't/don't do that. If you know me you know that's true - I can't help but speak up in most situations and even if I don't say a word my facial expressions speak for me - haha! It's actually not really a good thing - it means I probably won't go far in the corporate world - oh well.

My mom has been caring for a bunch of kids for the last ten days while their parents are away and I've been by a few times to help out and got thrown up on for my trouble. Yes, actual vomit down my leg - it was wonderful - and now I'm sick - I have zero appetite. This will probably help me lose weight - don'tcha think?

Because I am going away this weekend I have had to cancel a lot of my commitments which I feel REALLY bad about. I hate looking like a flake! But there isn't amything I can do about this situation. I have to just give it all up to God and let him deal with it.

Busy Busy Busy...

So I've had a couple busy days this week.

I spent Saturday and mother's day letting my mom chill on the couch while I went though my boxes of crap stuff. I actually got that all completed with dear sister Becca's help. However, Mom and Bec reminded me that I also have Rubbermade containers of crap stuff to sort. This is all in preparation for moving in with Megan in June - YAY!

Monday I went over to my soon to be new apartment and met the landlord and also in the spirit of being proactive I brought over 4 boxes of stuff. I figure that I am sort of SOL when it comes to moving in sor several reasons:

1) Both Megan and Maia will be away when I move in (they will be in Hawaii when I should be moving in - color me jealous)and they are the go to people for organizing people and helping out

2) June 1 is actually a Monday so hopefully the current roomate will be out or atleast not mind if I move in on May 31st???? Is that even allowed? I just can't imagine anyone helping me on a Monday - and help I will need!

3) I have a double bed and no way to move it in - I am hoping that someone has a truck and is willing to help me out for like an hour - anyone????

So my current plan is to move things in slowly before actually moving in because I think I'm going to be doing it all by myself and I dont't want to die from exhaustion.

On Saturday I also went to my orientation for the online course I am taking this summer. I am SO screwed in trouble - I for some ridiculous reason thought that taking an online course would make it easier to...I don't know live my life? Be more or less able to come and go as I please but I am sadly mistaken. It turns out I have homework to hand in every Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday. Honestly! I realized yesterday why there is such a heavy work load - it's because I have to teach myself everything in the course. Color me dumbfounded! Why didn't I think of this. Driving to Surrey once a week now does not seem like such a bad idea after I have spent 10 hours doing homework this week - yeah 10 hours. And compared to the other people in my 'learning group' I think I did a pretty shoddy job. However, I am now done all the homework for the week (you can hand things in early) but I think I may try and work ahead so there isn't so much pressure. Of course, now that I am thinking about it I don't see much time to do that in the coming days. *Sigh* Oh brother...

I did enjoy a wonderful night home alone yesterday - I do truly love to be alone. Mom called last night to see how things were and I told her that I was scared being alone in the house and she "Really?" all excited but then I burst her bubble and laughed saying "No are you kidding me? I LOVE it!" Living for a year by myself in London was HEAVEN! However, I'm sure living with Megan will be fabulous and I am very excited!

Weddings...

So...Becca is home and we have her living in the living room - she and I are supposed to be sharing the master bedroom but in classic procrastination style we haven't done anything about that yet - and since I am moving out in June she may just stay in the living until then - what am I saying she almost definitely WILL stay in the living room until then. Man I am the WORST sister EVER!

On a more productive note I trying to assist in the wedding planning process. Since Becca has NO idea how to plan a wedding and honestly neither do I have spent many an hour scouring the internet for clues. Many an hour that I should have spent working but I get all my work done so who's going to complain? Anyways, I came across www.frugalbride.com and they have wonderful lists for you use while planning your wedding unfortunately they aren't in Adobe so you can't type into them so I have spent many more hours typing them into Excel. Yeah that is how much I love my sister. She even seemed to appreciate them which is a bonus. Hopefully thanks to the lists she has better idea now of what she needs to accomplish to pull off a wedding.

Oh and bonus - I am actually a bridesmaid in this wedding as opposed to being the Bride's Beeatch - which is what I was for Anna'a wedding.

Now the moment you have all been waiting for...

Well not really but I do have an exciting announcement.

Someone is getting married! YAY!

It's not me - haha!

My youngest sister (at the ripe old age of 21) got engaged yesterday.

I'm very happy for her and I'm very excited that she is coming home on Friday so I can congratulate her in person.

Edmonton...

I am home safe and sound from my little jaunt to Edmonton.

I had a wonderful time relaxing and spending time with Anne & Alison. It started off a little rocky with Anne being 30 minutes late picking me up. Poor thing was VERY upset that she was late. It wasn't her fault though - she left in plenty of time to get to the airport nice and early but ended up getting a speeding ticket which then took the cop 25 minutes to write up. It was a speed trap and 2 others cars were pulled over after she was and they both left before her. I didn't really mind - it was a bit disconcerting because she doesn't have a cell phone but...I just sat down and read my book in the airport and figured she would show up eventually - and she did :)
Alison, however, was a bit more upset since she was waiting for us but I was able to contact her and let her know we were running late and why on my cellphone.

Saturday we met Alison at the Farmer's Market where I bought this fabulous vinaigrette - which I conveniently forgot I couldn't take home because it was larger than 100ml and I only had a carryon with me. Then we went for a nice little lunch where a proceeded to dump hot coffee down my lovely cream shirt - that was so NOT emabarassing. After lunch we walked up and down Whyte Ave popping in and out of all the cute shops down there. I would recommend it to anyone who goes to Edmonton. Then Alison went home and Anne and I rented some movies.

Sunday Anne and I ended up going to Starbucks 3 times - heard the exact sermon that we needed to hear - went back to Whyte Ave - I had my first Booster Juice ever - went to West Ed - stopped by Alison's place (which is fabulous by the way) - and then off to the Airport (nice and early).
When I got home I promptly washed my coffee stained laundry and went to bed.

All in all I really enjoyed myself and am very happy that I went and feel very relaxed.
Oh and I found out today that I passed business stats so that's a plus :)

Off and Away - sorta...

So I leave this afternoon for my super short trip to Edmonton to visit Anne & Alison - I'm excited - sorta...

Do you ever find that when it comes to going on a trip that when it actually comes to leaving you would rather stay home? Well that's how I feel - I feel like I would rather stay in bed this weekend than:

Friday:
- Leave work @ 1pm
- Arrive @ Abbotsford Airport by 2pm
- Board plane in Abbotsford @ 3:05pm
- Arrive @ Calgary Airport @ 5:44pm
- Have layover in Calgary
- Board plane in Calgary @ 7:15pm
- Arrive in Edmonton @ 8:32pm

Sunday:
- Arrive @ Edmonton Airport @ 8:00pm
- Board plane @ 9:00pm
- Arrive @ Abbotsford Airport @ 10:02pm

Obviously I will enjoy my time with my friends but right now - sitting at my desk at work - I feel like I would rather just go to bed...

I am such a whiner - it is time for me to "Suck it up Princess!"

I love Anne and Alison and I know I will have a fabulous time with them and so what if I'm tired! Like my mom said yesterday - the things she regrets in life are the things she didn't do not the things she did.

Time for the next step...

So yesterday I had my final exam for Business Stats (yuck!) I think I did okay - I'm sure I did really well on the multiple choice which I bombed on the last test so that's an improvement.

My new class starts on May 9th - Organizational Behaviour - don't ask me what it is because I don't know - all I know is that I have to take it for my diploma and it's offered online-ish - I have to go to the Surrey campus 4 times this summer - once for orientation and 3 times for tests. With me hopefully moving to Abbotsford in June I really didn't want to be driving out to Surrey every week if I could help it.

I am running away this weekend to Edmonton - I will come home Sunday night - I'm too cheap to skip work and lose money - well too poor anyway - haha!

My baby sister - Becca - comes home for the summer May 1st - I am supposed to move out June 1st. So until then Bec and I will get to share a room again - we had to last summer and that worked out fine - the only problem was Becca didn't like me reading before bed so I would hang out in the living room doing that - no issue really. Isn't it great when siblings can get along?

I'm loving the weather - I love sun and I love rain - I really only HATE snow - I always say that I live on the coast so that I will have to deal with as little snow as possible - this winters snow really annoyed me and of course people should always take note when I am annoyed - haha!

So...yeah...that's what's up!

Grandma Cherry

So my Grandmother passed away on Tuesday March 24, 2009. It was very unexpected - she had alzheimers but other than that she was in good health or so we thought.
She fell asleep in her chair watching TV and just never woke up - if you had to choose a way to go wouldn't that be it? We're very relieved that she was able to go peacefully because when my Grandfather died in August 2007 it was more of an ordeal for him - he kept waking up alive when he really just wanted to die.
They were both Christians so those of us left behind can rest assured that we will see them again in heaven.
It's still sad to think that we'll never have a chat or a walk to feed the ducks or make a puzzle together again. But as my brother said so well - "We lost her a long time ago"
Alzheimers robs us of the people that we love so much and leaves nothing but a shell behind. It makes a mockery of that person's life and accomplishments when they look into the face of their children and say "Who are you?"

Goodbye Grandma - you were one of the best women I know and you will be greatly missed.

How bad is this...

So how is it that I have decided to bribe MYSELF into studying for my Bus. Stats. test tomorrow?
I know I should study for it but as of yet I haven't even opened my textbook - well I've opened it to photocopy the equations like we're allowed to but other than that - not a thing.
I wonder if I can think of a good bribe to give myself if I study then I will study.
It's not even as though I feel too confident about this test - I studied like a crazy person for a week for the last one and only got a B.
I know all I really want to do is go home today after work and lie down on the couch and watch TV - but I HAVE to study - right?

Rice...

So I'm not the smartest person in the world...

On Tuesday my sister and her boyfriend and my mom were all making dinner - I don't know why they thought they needed such a team effort but regardless they did. My sister's boyfriend burnt the rice so I thought I would be helpful and chuck the rice down the disposal and start soaking the rice pot - it was burnt pretty black.

Apparently you ARE NOT supposed to put rice down a sink because it expands and clogs the pipes. How can I have lived so long and NEVER been told this. Needless to say the sink got all clogged and the pipes started leaking and I had to go to school that night so I left my very annoyed younger sister and her boyfriend to try and deal with the mess. She then against my advice put draino down the sink - I figured that since the pipes were already leaking that the draino would just pour out anyways...and it did - they then used my towel to clean up all the mess - my blue and white striped towel is now pink and white - how fun. They spent hours trying to fix it but they couldn't.

So Wednesday I came to work and went onto Ask.com and asked the question "How do you unplug a sink clogged with rice?" I got several good answers but the one I went for was the sink snake - so after work I went to Home Depot and picked myself up a 1/4" auger. I got home at 4:15 and by 4:30 I had removed the trap and snaked the drains and unclogged the clogs.

The lessons in this story are...
1) Do not put rice down a sink
2) You can "Ask" anything and get a good answer
3) If I make a problem I will fix the problem

Oops....

So you know how I said I was giving up caffeine which included chocolate for lent...well I made a few mistakes on Saturday...I was at a wedding and I had a little brownie and a nanaimo bar - I didn't even think of it until I was having lunch later that - oh wait I had chocolate...and then that evening someone brought over timbits and I immediately scooped a chocolate one because they are my favorite and ate it - then realized that "Dang - that was chocolate!" and at the same get togther someone had made a wonderful chocolate cake and I thought well what the heck I might as well have a piece - who actually eats chocolate for the caffeine anyway right? It shouldn't count...*sigh*...I'm such a bad person

LENT....

So I decided to give up caffeine for lent - Yeah caffeine not just coffee or tea or pop or chocolate - caffeine - so essentially I have given up all those things.
I am SO tired and have this chronic headache but I have made a committment and will follow through.
I have no desire to be addicted to caffeine anyways so this is as good a time as any to kick the habit.