It's my Birthday!

So today I am officially 24 years old - boo.

A month or so ago I started telling myself that I was already 24 years old just so I would have a smooth transition into actually turning 24. Such as when I would speak disparagingly about myself - "I am 24 years old and I don't have a degree" - "I am 24 years old and I don't have a boyfriend" - the boyfriend thing is only particularly upsetting because I have a 20 year old brother who is MARRIED and I don't even have a boyfriend!

I think 24 is the year that birthdays are going to start going downhill for me - my one saving grace is that I am moving to England I have filled out my UK Passport application, gotten my picture taken and on Sunday I'm going to get PK to sign it all and I am going to mail it off on Monday - I AM doing this, I AM leaving the country and running far, far away. I have to, otherwise I will be stuck living the rest of my life not living the life that God has chosen for me. I feel like Abraham when God told him to leave his family and go into the unknown and Abraham instead took his family with him - that was NOT what God asked him to do. I feel that God is calling me to England and I have to answer that call. Maybe there I will find something that will awaken my sleeping spirit. Until then I wait and pray (as patiently as possible).