On a lighter note...

On Tuesday I got another gold star! And I might get another one next week I was pretty close! Woohoo!

I did get my car back yesterday - they said there was nothing wrong with it! what a load of **** - I instructed them to change the battery connections (I know that was the problem) and they said "Oh, yes we did notice that they were marginal" (what the heck does marginal mean?) So hopefully no more car drama!

My car broke down yesterday. I can't believe it. I went to pick up Emma for school. I park get Emma and then my car wouldn't start again. Thankfully Stephen had gotten home just as I arrived so Emma was able to drive us to school with their car and Stephen was able to try and fix my car - he didn't suceed and now it is in the shop - hopefully I'll get it back today.

Still no results yet...still no idea if I should be really freaking out or not...just trying to be normal in the interim...I think I'm pulling it off. Thanks for all the prayers!

Crash and Burn...

That's how I feel right now - like at any moment I will lose control and simply crash and burn. Kind of like being on a rollercoaster and life is so great as you climb up high above the crowds below, then suddenly you've crested the hill and the bottom falls out of your life and all you can do is hold on for dear life.

I am very good at pretending everything is okay. It's a talent that I nurtured when I was growing up - I could be dying inside but no one would ever know. They could suspect that something is wrong but there was no way that anyone could find out for certain because I am also a very good liar. Another talent that I picked up and perfected in my younger years. It's not something that I am very proud of and has only come to the forefront again very recently.

Last week in Sunday school we were supposed to teach about how lying is bad and as teachers we were supposed to share an example of how we got caught in a lie. I have never been caught lying - I've lied a lot but not once has it ever turned out poorly for me. You can't share that with kids - you can't tell them that if you're really good at it lying can get you almost anything you want and you'll never get in trouble again.

Several years ago I promised myself that I wouldn't lie anymore - it was too easy to simply lie about everything and manipulate situations to my liking. It wasn't living it was like directing a orchestra and people were my instruments.

Something happened last week that really threw me for a loop but there is not point in causing needless distress in everyone around. Hopefully in the next couple weeks I will find out for certain if there is anything to fret about until then I go forward pretending everything is okay. Please don't ask me how things are because I don't want to have to break my promise.

What a cool weekend!

I had a super weekend.
Saturday I went to dinner with Maia, Erin and Joanie. Then we went to visit Meg's at work and met up with Natty and Corrie who were also visiting Megan! Then we went to Corrie and Natty's to watch "The Illusionist" (Which was pretty good)
Sunday was great too - A super sermon by Eryn and then Sushi in the Fort and it was the first Family Night of the year and it was so funny trying to get all hyped up for the kids.